I have really bad Mood-swing. (since always)
recently they'e been extreme.
Like HOLY FUCK!
One minute I'm completely fine. Life is good. Breathing heroine.
The next minute I'm Leaping out my skin. Breaking things.
Sometimes I black out and come back in the shower. (not naked)
I just scream at myself.
I'm so stupid.
I shouldn't have let HIM into my life.
I shouldn't have been so dumb as to allow HER to trick me.
I could have made mom not walk out us.
It's all my fault.
I let it all happen.
It slipped through my fingers.
In hindsight I can see where I went wrong.
The exact point.
With HIM I went wrong with talking to strangers on the internet. You're parents always say it's bad, and you never listen.
With TORI I went wrong with even trying. Everyone I've ever been with has hurt me some way. Why would she have been different.
I can't really stand to look at her anymore.
Just like Brandi (my mother) I won't talk to her.
She's wasted everything this family has worked to hard to ascertain.
Fuck that bitch.
So I guess what I'm saying is I have a wiring problem, and I can't afford a mechanic.
Have a good day Deviantart. <3